Alright. Here we go. So, I first started this journey in January and I decided to share my results with you all after one month of my efforts. I have been working out on-and-off again, super stressed, and not eating the best to be completely honest. In fact, I gained weight. However, I gained muscle – which weighs more than fat and burns more calories. I have felt stronger and overall healthier on the days that I do work out and eat nutritious foods, but those days are not consistent.
This is not the first time that I planned on losing weight or living a healthy lifestyle. Every new year, every new season, every new whatever – I keep planning the same goal. I want to be healthy and lean. I want to feel good and be happy. I want to feel confident and enjoy shopping for clothes. Unfortunately, it seems that no matter what I try, I always end up back to square one. I make up excuses. I’m too tired. I’m sick. I should take a rest day. I’m sore. I need to do this thing instead. I battle with myself on whether or not it is a good day to take a break for my body to catch up and heal or if I’m just making up an excuse. The hardest part of all of this is finding a balance. For example, on the days I keep track of my calories and limit it to 2k, which is a generous limit might I add, I still end up starving half-way through the day. And yes I’ve thought, maybe it’s the foods I’m eating. But then I eat avocado pita pockets with chicken or turkey sandwiches and almonds and I still end up starving at the end of the day. Here is where balance comes into play again. I shouldn’t starve myself but at the same time I shouldn’t eat half a pack of cookies. Another struggle, if you’re a girl at least, is working out causes so many issues with my period. It will be irregular and cramps hurt worse because I’ve been exercising. Does anyone else have this problem? It makes me not want to work out or I physically will be unable to work out because of the pain. This leads me to taking a few days off from the gym and not going back for a while because I’ve lost my routine. There are so many things that get in the way of being the person I want to be – and most of them are my own fault.
This last month and the beginning of February, I’ve been a failure. I let myself down. But, hey, at least I’m honest. All I can do now is pick myself up and keep going with a new determination. I went from 180 pounds to 155 pounds and now I’m headed straight back to 180 again. It’s time I focus up and count calories, make healthy choices, work out, and most of all, STAY CONSISTENT. I’m glad you’re all here by my side for my journey and that I can be 100% honest. I’m here to give the full story of weight loss and a fitness journey – not just the results or the how-to. Rather, the in-between, the nitty gritty, and the ups and downs that go along with it.
Therefore, this month I plan on getting back to that routine. Waking up at 4 am and not procrastinating. Not being tired anymore. Not being hungry all day. However, I am always left with this question of “How?”. How am I going to wake up early when I get no sleep? How am I going to eat healthy when there are no healthy foods to eat? How am I going to stop procrastinating when all I need is a break? Well, Les Brown, a great motivational speaker, once said “how’ is none of your business.” As long as I have the determination to stay on track, I give it my all, and I do what is necessary to meet my goal, then I will learn ‘how’ as I go along. January was about figuring out a routine of what works for me. Now, February is all about sticking to that routine – even when it gets hard. I’ve gained the muscle, I’ve seen results, now it’s time to get serious and get the results that I want. I can have it. It’s just a matter of will I let myself have it.
What I hope you can take away from my first month on my journey to losing 20lbs is that it’s not easy. Losing weight is not easy nor is it a fast process nor a straight path. I am putting this all out there in hopes that many of you can relate and know you are not alone. Now, I am not incredibly overweight. My story will not be an incredible one. However, it will be one that will change my own life for the better and that will show that you can do anything as long as you put your mind, body, and soul to it. It will show you that “skinny” or “fat” shouldn’t be how we describe each other or the types of bodies we want to have. But rather “healthy” and “unhealthy”, or even “lean”. I don’t hope for a “skinny” body, I hope for a healthy one that will take me to where I need to go in life and that can support me wherever life takes me. I hope for a body that makes me happy, inside and out, and in my mind and soul.
Let me know what you guys think about weight loss and if I should keep updating this series to show you all how my journey is going!